London Paris New York

I am back after a longggg hiatus. There was no plan to take such long break from blogger but was just having writer's block due to some personal issues. Anyways that's done and dusted and here I am. I thought a lot on what i should write about. There are many topics in my head but the urge to write about them was missing

I thought these days I am missing something in my life and when I watched this movie I realised what it was that I am missing. No its not about a guy please...I am missing London desperately. I went to London in 2008 March and it became my city. May be it was my first international travel, may be because it was more like Mumbai, may be because London means Wimbledon and Arsenal, whatever is the reason but I fell for this city real hard and fast. London is beautiful in Surreal way. London with its Victorian architect, its crazy weather (it can rain anytime in London. You better carry your umbrella everyday), good food, pulls you in its charm. Whenever I land at Heathrow, I can smell that different London air. It has an identity. I am not kidding..and then I feel yes I belong here. In London I met many wonderful people. My office team, some of my closest friends I discovered in this city. I have loved and I have lost the love too in this city. When I was struggling big time in my personal life I ran away to London where I found some peace. Every walk from tube station to office or to home has always have some memory attached. The Buses, Tubes,Costa Coffee,Pubs, Oxford street, Waterstones, Hagen Daz, Chillango, Crispy Cream, CineWorld ohh I miss it all and most importantly I miss that time in my life. Now its just has become a memory and I am trying desperately to grasp at that lost time. This movie tugged and pulled at my heart strings and have compelled me to write about it. The movie has captured London very nicely and it fits in the story as a third Character.

The second city in the movie is Paris..My dream city. I didn't like the Paris I saw in this movie. I have been to Paris twice. Once in winter and once in Summer and loved the city in both times. And its truly a romantic city. I cant explain why but in Paris you always miss that special someone when you are there alone. Paris is fun, Its colourful, Its always awake and ready to party. I had the most amazing wine in Paris. and Chocolate Crepe are awesome..Disneyland, Eiffel, Louvre, River Seine. Everything about Paris is Romance. Everything about it creates a longing in you and that's why this city tops the chart. But I am not sure how Paris will treat you if you stay there for a long period and not just holidays. I think the mystery of Paris is best experienced for short term. I am afraid I might not like it if I stayed there for long. But whenever I will get a chance I would love to go to Paris and I hope at least in one of these trips I will have that Special someone with me to share my joy :)

Now to the third city of the movie..New York..this city we have seen so many times in Karan Johar movies that it feels I have already been there. But I feel that city is calling me.. Its waiting for me..Its not my dream city or I don't have a compulsion that I have to go there once etc. But somehow I feel that I would definitely be there one day.I don't have any picture of New York in my mind. So it would be a true mystery to unravel
Just praying that life will give me a chance to at least try to solve that riddle.

P.S. - About the movie, its one of the fresh  movies I have seen in sometime. The actors have done a very good job and I think its one of those mature movies. Most of the situations in movie can happen real life too.and of course I loveeee Ali Zafar :P

Sporting events and ME!!!

The last Monday I thought about writing this post when I was telling a friend why I didn't watch Arsenal match over the weekend..My another friend was shouting at me for not picking up her calls few days back.She thought may be I had this vrat or something before Australian Open not to talk to any friends so Federer will win..though it was nothing like that but I agree that its a possibility with me. Whats with me and my favourite teams...

Yes I am toooo superstitious when it comes to matches for my favourites...be it Arsenal game or Federer match or Sachine inching towards his 100. I get soo touchy and fidgety..There was a phase when I had stopped watching Federer play live cause I have taken it to my brain that when I see the match he loses..So the Aus 2009 Final I had just heard. Can you believe it. I was in UK.So I had gotten up at 6 to follow the match. Though the live streaming was ON on my laptop I had opened BBC's live text update link and along with the commentary from the live stream I was following the match on BBC. For more than 4 hours this madness went on. Still Fed lost and thankfully now I watch all his games.

When Sachin is playing I don't move from my place. During 2003 India Pak match I actually had cramps in my leg due to sitting at same place when Sachin made his 97.

Still for Arsenal it has happened that when I don't watch the game they mostly win :P the only exception is when I watch the game at Emirates..Then they do win.ha ha ha.Today too I was at home. Star Sports was showing the game live. Still what did I do..Opened BBC again and put on music channel..Now watching the highlights and feeling very warm inside for the performance..C'on you Gooners. If you are winning I don't mind watching only the highlights at all.

Gooner for Life

Love of my life ;)

Always wait for this moment

People say I am crazy..Yes actually I am about sports and this madness doesn't help either..Though I don't regret this at all. I love Federer, Sachin and Arsenal too much to care :):)

Aaj Socha to...

I thought I will write a blog today..its been pending for a long time now..there were many things I wanted to right about..Many thought crowding my head..But when I started writing, its not the topics which I was thinking about writing. Its about a song which caught me offgaurd and made me come to terms the feelings which I was so consciously avoiding.

Yesterday I wanted to watch the program Jagjit Singh Tribute to be aired on TV at 10. I Switched on the TV and suddenly was assaulted by this song which I try not to listen much. Don't get me wrong. Its one of my favourites. But it always open up the old wounds which I so try to close. The song is "Aaj Socha to Aansoo Bhar Aaye" from the movie Haste Zakhma. This song is the ultimate combination of Lata Mangeshkar, Madan Mohan and Kaifi Aazmi. The only issue with this song is Priya Rajwansh. I wish they would taken someone else with expressions.

This song was from that generation where the lyrics of the songs used to pull the heart strings. This was the Era where many of the greatest songs (music/lyrics) wise were made which we still listen and can relate too.

"Reh Gayi Zindagi Dard Banke, Dard Dil mein Samaye Samaye"

Anyways, this song always takes me back and make me relive my past. I should ideally hate this song for all the pain it causes but somehow I cannot. This song shows me that its my decision where my life is currently and I have got to be strong if I want to have it that way.

Home Sweet Home

wow..I mean wow....I really don't have words to write this post...Finally after all the search I have booked a flat in Pune. It was a longggggggggg wait and still have to wait a long time before I can actually set a foot in my home. But the feeling of having a house of your own is exhilarating. It has been my dream for so long.It was one of the biggest items on my 'To Do' list before I turn 30. Now the long process of getting a loan, keeping track of the work being done at the site starts..

I really hope this will give me some stability and peace of mind that I have been searching for a long time..

Ohh I am so happy. Thank you God!!!!

Why O Why?

Today realised one more friend of mine doesn't feel like talking to me anymore. Its so weird. I have kind off got used to this I guess. From last couple of years, the people I have banked to be very close friends of mine one fine day decide that they no longer feel like talking to me.

I am fine with this. I dont want to force anyone. The only problem I have is they don't even feel like informing their decision to me. I keep asking them whats wrong. I keep begging them to talk and after a while they do feel pity and tell me the reason or just inform me that yes they don't feel like talking.

And since now its happening with quite alarming frequency I think something is major wrong with me. Am I a bad person or irritating one or may be after a while I become boring to be with?

I don't know. Why its so hard to just let me know upfront. I am not saying its always their fault. I have been wrong too but unless and untill someone tells me what's wrong how will I know it? I might be many things but mind reader I am not. It hurts...Hurts a lot

I Don't understand how people can erase you from their lives just because its easier than working things out.

New perspective for films I initially couldn't stand

Today while coming to office in shuttle, I heard a song from Movie 'Kuch Kuch Hota Hai'. It seems like I have seen the movie ages ago and have forgotten all about it. But today when I heard the song and thought about the movie something strike me. There are couple of movies in which I have few basic objections to some core part of the movie. But thinking about KKHH, I realised I no longer objected to these parts in the movie. I have grown in experience may be that's what is helping me to relate to these parts though this doesn't mean I approve or denounce them. It just means I am few years wiser and at least I can look at these things objectively. So here are the basic objections I had with some of the movies and what i think of them now.

• Kuch Kuch Hota Hai - We will start with this one as its the reason of starting the post. So my main objection here was even after 8 years, KJo and SRK assumed that Kajol would be unmarried and unattached to anyone in this period. But today when I thought about this, I could see that its possible. First of all Kajol leaves in last year of college. Even if we assume she was 22 at that time then its possible for her to remain unmarried by 30. About remaining unattached, yes that's possible too after the setback she got, she was may be so emotionally drained out or may be distrustful of guys that she never could fall for anyone else. May be she was afraid of again getting hurt in the process. So after thinking all these points I can give benefit of doubts to the film. But I still think SRK's character in the move was a perfect example of MCP.
• Dil To Paagal Hai - Something is really up. I happen to saw this movie when I went home yesterday. Is it a coincidence..may be it is..anyways I hated lots of things about this movie and still do. But one point I was always stumped at about was why Madhuri stands in airport even if she doesn't love Akshay. for Old me that was really stupid and i still cant do a complete U turn and say no that's correct but at least now I can see the dilemma behind the stupidity. She was stunned by this. Plus Akshay is her best friend. So she didn't wanted to hurt him etc etc.. So again though I wont approve it at least I will make amends with this scene. But even then too I cannot stand the movie. The only character normal and believable in this movie is Karishma's Nisha whom I so relate too.
• Kabhi Alvida Na Kehena - Now this is a cracker. When I initially saw the movie I hated Rani's character. I mean though SRK's Character is a jerk throughout at least there are some reasons behind which he can take refuge but I never understand what Rani's problem was. She had a loving husband,good home,job etc. Why she felt so suffocated in that marriage? I think I can imagine her situation. She never loved AB Junior. yes I know in marriage you have to do many adjustments but if you have been friends with the person and in that time if u didn't fall for them then you most probably never will. And she is not just suffocating because of this, her other problem is she is not being fair to Ab Junior and that too is affecting her outlook. Though I never understood how SRK was an answer to all her problems..but that's the thing which I probably will never get :P

These are some of the movies I was talking about. No I didn't pick them coz of the SRK connection or KJo connection. These are the movies which irritated me most and that's why I am explaining the change in my thoughts about at least some part of the movie.

 

Happy Blogging Anniversary to me...

12 Dec has come and gone and I never realised it was the first anniversary of my blogging. Yes, its been one year since I wrote my first blog...wow time surely flies...I never thought I would continue writing(that shows how much confidence I have in myself :P) but I have proven me wrong in a good way.

I am happy to discover this hobby. I am not writing as a professional blogger. My blogs are purely for me..As an outlet for my joy, pain, anguish and helplessness. Blogging has given me the much needed platform to express my thoughts.

There was a time when I would have scoffed at this thought. Why would you need blogging when you have so many friends to whom you can talk to about anything and everything I might have asked.

But as time has passed I haven't lost any friends. But with the passage of time I have found out who was true and who was never really there for me. This revelation was a massive blow.I who used to be proud of having so many groups of friends realised what an illusion I have created around me.

So once the realisation came, I cherished/admire those who are still there with me more and more. And now blogging has become my friend whom I can tell anything and everything

I just pray to god that I would never lose my this friend.